You think that hating high school makes you cool. Or saying that everyone else sucks makes you any better. But it just makes you look like an ass.
It’s hard for me to do this. You make promise you won’t keep; things like”oh I’ll text you tonight,” and I know you won’t keep them, but it doesn’t stop it from hurting each time a promise is broken. It’s not easy to always be alone with your thoughts. I’m constantly thinking about horrible accidents, thinking you didn’t text back because you got in a car accident, or that tomorrow when I make that turn at the top of a hill to work a car will come barreling into me. Thinking out what I would have to do if I broke my leg, would I still be able to work? Thinking that if something should happen to you who could I call to cover my shift at work, so I could help you through it. It’s not easy having those thoughts every minute of everyday. It doesn’t make it easier when you ignore me, or lie to me.
Sometimes I think of myself as broken, and thats the scariest thought of all, because you’ve been scared away before, and everytime we fight you go to Her, and for you to runaway because I’m broken to her would kill me. You are broken, and I do everything to help, to help you cope, recover, become okay with you. But you choose to runaway from me, and that’s the thing that hurts the most.